I've already wasted my valuable time and life into doing the
things perfectly. I work day and night to do a work sincerely to complete it in
time. In-fact I try to finish before deadline and this has been a problem for me.
There are some of my friends who are happy and are leading their life successful
and are not afraid that if their work crosses deadline. Indeed they are the
ones living a joyful life.
Fear,
rejection, disapproval are the elements that drives me to do a better work but
this haunts me a lot and I am already into frustration. I want all the things
to be perfect. I know there are many like me who have similar problem.
Are we trying
to be perfectionist? If then what is perfectionism?
Perfectionist
aspires to be top achievers and do not allow themselves to make even a single
mistake. They are always on the alert for imperfections and weaknesses in
themselves and others. Perfectionism is not the same as striving for
excellence. People who pursue excellence in a healthy way take genuine pleasure
in working to meet high standards. Perfectionists are motivated by self doubt
and fear of disapproval, ridicule and rejection. The high producer has drive,
while perfectionist is driven.
I see
others and get disappointed. The reason behind this is they take life and work
for granted and goes beyond rules and regulation, perhaps they do anything what
they feel like, which I think is incorrect but I am mistaken by my own definition.
I should take life lightly like them as every other people do mistake and are
given a chance to correct it but again my conscience doesn’t let me accept this
as, if given a responsibility than we must do that work sincerely and
wholeheartedly.
I've
gone through lot of problem in trying to be Mr. Perfectionist. My self esteem
has always been low as I fear that I would be rejected if I do not perform
perfectly. I almost have gone through depression. Most of the time, I lack
motivation. I'd an obsessive behavior like focusing on details and rules. I've
an eating disorder. And most importantly the relations with my family and
friends have gone sour. They feel like I've a problem and I feel like they've a
problem and ultimately I end up hurting people without meaning to hurt them.
I’ve realized
it sooner and have stated using a different methodology that high achiever
would practice. They accept that making mistakes and risking failure are part
of the achievement process and part of being human. There are some benefits of
being high achiever. They set standards that are high but achievable, enjoy the
process, not just the outcome, they recover from disappointment quickly, they
view mistakes as opportunities for growth and learn.
Once you
are aware of the ways by which you expect yourself to be perfect, you can start
to change your behavior. Remember one thing that there isn't anything that is
perfect as everything has its perfect as well as imperfect portions. Enjoy life.
:)
(Moin Uddin maintains interest in all things positive in life and loves to write about them, He is from Ghattekulo, Kathmandu and can be reached at moinuddin_200000@yahoo.com or 9841689437)